Makes me woozy...

I want to pretend to be a tough guy, but the sight of my own blood (in larger than normal quantities like when giving blood or having some drawn), images of broken body parts, thinking about the sound my bones made when they broke, any touching of broken areas.... writing about such things... makes me woozy. I might pass out!

It's been a few days shy of four weeks since I broke my clavicle aka collarbone. Generally I am doing much better now, but I can still tell I am broken. There is a lot of soreness in my shoulder and a continuous numb pain. It seems to be better every day but it has not subsided enough to let me forget about the injury.

I can do a lot of things again with my right arm, sometimes with a little sharp pain to let me know I've gone too far. I am in physical therapy twice a week, which in general feels good, until the next day then I feel sore. My range of motion has increased with every visit and the exercises I do at home are easy and not too uncomfortable.

I have been on the trainer doing endurance efforts for short periods of time, right between 45-60 minutes. The coach had me try some intensity yesterday and the shoulder let me know quite clearly that it not ready quite yet. I'll keep trying until there is pain then will back off.

My goal is to go for an outside ride right around Christmas. My tradition two years running, has been to ride my favorite mountain bike ride and use the POV camera to record it and make a little Christmas ride movie. I definitely won't be on the mountain bike this year (snow probably would prevent that anyway), and since the road bike is rather boring from a POV standpoint I may not bother with making a movie. I do feel a pile of excuses coming mainly out of fear of re-injury. I new injury I can handle probably...? Maybe I can get someone to ride with me weather permitting.